Going to work with mixed feeling,
Tired, lonely, happy,joy…
Arghh..mixed of everything.
I wish i could stop thinking about yesterday,
but i couldn’t.
it keep disturbing me,my work, my day.
each and every words keep playing in my ears like a record,
let it be the astonishing reality, or the ugly truth.
Finally, I can grab hold firmly to my happiness?
Finally, is my prayers all this time is fulfilled?
Then, my ‘overthinking’ side is invading my mind.
It start to give a lot of negative thoughts and possibilities.
A lot of it.
I feel that my happiness is only for a minute,
and it will fade away quickly.
If that girl finally appear and give response,
If he finally leave me and go for that girl.
I think my low self-esteem is taking over myself again.