If you asked me how many times you have crossed my mind I would say once because you never really left…
Things won’t be done according to my wishes anyway.I look pathetic always trying to force things to go my way.You’re the one who making the choice.
Going to work with mixed feeling,
Tired, lonely, happy,joy…
Arghh..mixed of everything.
I wish i could stop thinking about yesterday,
but i couldn’t.
it keep disturbing me,my work, my day.
each and every words keep playing in my ears like a record,
let it be the astonishing reality, or the ugly truth.
Finally, I can grab hold firmly to my happiness?
Finally, is my prayers all this time is fulfilled?
Then, my ‘overthinking’ side is invading my mind.
It start to give a lot of negative thoughts and possibilities.
A lot of it.
I feel that my happiness is only for a minute,
and it will fade away quickly.
If that girl finally appear and give response,
If he finally leave me and go for that girl.
I think my low self-esteem is taking over myself again.
Undescribeable feeling,keep rushing in my heart. I keep on looking and searching for the answer, searching like a mad person. Till one day, a flash of memory keep playing in my mind like a film. A smile finally seen on my face. I’m smiling for the whole day, when i realise the answer for the question. I don’t know it’s the true answer or not,but for the time being, i will trust my feeling. I will keep on smiling, and I will keep on playing the same film in my mind, a film of you.