I feel really helpless right now, knowing someone is suffering and sad all alone. To know he’s crying inside, it make my heart really heavy. I feel like i’m a useless person, I don’t know how to comfort him, I don’t know how to make him happy and I really don’t know how to give a good response. Sometime I feel like I’m giving him an extra burden, an extra problem. I wish I could see him, but the distance keep us apart. I wish I have a magic carpet, I can ride it and fly to him when he in need. I wish i have Doreamon’s Magic Door, I can immediately stand in front of him whenever and where ever he want. I wish I can always by his side when he is sad and I wish I can give him a shoulder to cry on. I wish he can share his sadness with me, I wish he can share his problem with me. I wish I can reduce the distance in shortest time. But, that’s the only thing I can do right now, is wishing for him. All I can do now is pray for him, pray for his happiness, and pray for his success.
Sometimes people don’t need a strong and big reason to be happy,
The smallest achievement can make people feel bright and cheerful for the entire day,
So do I..
Been able to make the simplest food that I enjoy along the process can make me happy,
When my family happily eat it, it make me happy,
Although other food maker might say the difficulty rate for this as 0.000001,
It nonetheless still become a catalyst for me to try other new recipe..
Maybe after this, confetti cupcake with cream yogurt topping??
People do change throughout their life, let it be their personalities, their way of life, their dreams, their behaviour, their physical, what else? We do change, whether we realise it or not. Sometimes, we can’t avoid changes that happen in our life because of fate. Another thing is, sometime people change because of people around them. For me, i gladly give advises to my friend who in need and when needed, but to force them to change to the way I want is impossible. I don’t want to make them uncomfortable with their ownself, because changes that happen unwillingly is a tornment to themself. I will show them the right path, but whether to follow it or not, the decision are in their own hand. For me, they don’t need to change themselve to suit me, because I accept the way they are.
For me, changes start within our ownself.
Change yourself because you want to, not because you have to.
Don’t go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don’t imagine you’re too familiar
And I don’t see you anymore
I wouldn’t leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times,
I’ll take the bad times
I’ll take you just the way you are
Don’t go trying some new fashion
Don’t change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care
I don’t want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are.
I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.
I said I love you and that’s forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.
Writing is when people read you. Speak is when people hear you. Writing is easier than speak out loud, in my case. When I write, everything seems fine, everything seems in coordinate, everything seems satisfying. Writing will give me ample time to think, to go through my thought, and to modify it if necessary. This is how I express my self. I’m not good in expressing my feeling and my thought out loud. Whatever problem or situation I faced, usually I will keep it inside me, because I’m don’t know how to tell others. It’s easy for me to feel intimidate with others, hence I prefer to keep everything in my mind, keep my mouth shut tightly. However, those things keep distracting and distrupting my mind, until I ‘transfer’ it to somewhere. It’s like clearing up my mind, flushing everything down the drain.
Thus, now I found a medium to let go of my feeling and thought, by writing. It’s like I telling my story and my feeling to other people, without waiting for their response. It’s same like when you talk with your cat, or fish, or chicken, or what ever pet you have. Eventhough they just look at you with their cute-and-sparkling little eyes while you were talking to them, but you feel much better after that because you know, they are listening. It’s like writing a blog. Even though I don’t know who will read it, but i know, someone will read it, and I shared my feeling and my thought.