“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” ~Neil Gaiman~
Everybody in life is a chameleon. We change our ‘colours’ according to situations. It’s not a part of hypocracy, it’s just a self barrier, defending ourself against unwanted wave of perspective and negativity. Sometimes, being your true self all the time is just plain boring, like watching black-and-white colour tv, where all the stylist effort in the drama went wasteless (People only see the clothes, not the colour cause it’s all the same afterall). It’s not dual or split personality, because we ‘change’ depending on our reaction towards the situation and circle of people we are in, and it will change along with time. Being like a chameleon can turn you into a great person, because you can adapt to any situation, environment and people, despite the fact that you are actually clueless about everything.
“Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired. Smile, even when you’re trying not to cry and the tears are blurring your vision. Sing, even when people stare at you and tell you your voice is crappy. Trust, even when your heart begs you not to. Twirl, even when your mind makes no sense of what you see. Frolick, even when you are made fun of. Kiss, even when others are watching. Sleep, even when you’re afraid of what the dreams might bring. Run, even when it feels like you can’t run any more. And, always, remember, even when the memories pinch your heart. Because the pain of all your experience is what makes you the person you are now. And without your experience—you are an empty page, a blank notebook, a missing lyric. What makes you brave is your willingness to live through your terrible life and hold your head up high the next day. So don’t live life in fear. Because you are stronger now, after all the crap has happened, than you ever were back before it started.” ― Alysha Speer
* Totally agree with her. This is exactly what i’m trying to do in my life~ Smile even when ur heart is crying, giving out strong demeanour like an unbreakable wall when you are actually more fragile than a glass inside, and pretend like nothing happen although you are fighting your own feeling really hard…