30 Seconds of Joy

There’s a time, when you feel really happy. You feel like you own everything in this world. You can smile for the whole day, without any reason.

Then suddenly, something just spoiled it, ruining everything. Something that you least expected. The smile on your face fade away, blow along with the wind of frustration.

That is 30 seconds of joy.

A happiness that last for only 30 seconds.

You felt happy, but quicly being replaced with anguish.

That 30 seconds of joy,

You wish it would turn into 30 years, or 30 decades of joy.

You could only wish.

And you keep wishing~

 

Why I love you?

Why I love you?

Do I need a reason?

 

Why I love you?

Do I need to give an explanation?

 

Why I love you?

Do I have to show it to you?

 

Why I love you?

Do I have to tell others?

 

Why I love you?

Do I have to ask for permission?

 

Why I love you?

Do I have to give scientific measure?

 

Why I love you?

Do I have to give you the biological term?

 

Why I love you?

Do I need to derive the chemical equations?

 

Why I love you?

Do I need to give the psychological perspective?

 

Why I love you?

Do I need to relate it to social connection?

 

Why i love you?

Could you please stop ask me that question?

Because I didn’t know the exact reason.

The only thing I know,

Why I love you~

 

 

Behind every smile and laugh

Smile brightly,

Laugh cheerfully,

Did you know that’s what I love to do?

Of course I laugh when I’m happy, because that’s how I express my happiness. But sometimes happiness is not the only reason I laugh. For me, laugh is just like a theraphy,laughing is a part of my self defense. When I laugh, I feel I can hide myself, from pain, from fear, from nervous, from despair, from everything that bother me. When I’m smiling, I feel like everybody will be happy to be with me. When i’m smiling, i feel like someone is happy because of me. When i’m smiling, it’s like i’m giving out positive energy to them.

When I laugh, I feel like i’m entertaining my self. When I laugh, I feel like i’m living on my own. People might think that i’m not serious. People might think i’m just playing around. But, that’s me. I love to laugh. That’s the only thing I can do,  besides not giving the proper response that people might expected, because sometime I have problem in expressing myself. That’s why, I think laughing is the easiest way for me to express everything. Then, it’s become a habit, which can’t be changed anymore. People around me might be confused, what am I thinking actually? Am I just playing around?

No, I’m not.

I’m serious, but in my own way.

There’s a time when I’m angry and mad, there’s a time when I cry because I’m sad, but that’s when I’m alone. If  I’m with others, everything might be expressed with my laugh and smiles. I’m not crazy, I’m totally normal.

Because,

I love to smile and laugh~

 

 

Fly high

I want to fly high,

Holding the sky,

Embracing the star,

Laying down on the cloud,

Dancing under the moonlight,

 

I want to fly high,

Flying into a place,

Where people always dreamt of,

Live to the heart content,

Live to the fullest,

In a place named as Secrect Garden.

 

I want to fly high,

Fly into my own dream,

Fly into my own imagination,

Fly into world of my own creation,

 

I want to fly high,

Fly till I touch the sky~

 

Like a child~

Mature,

Doesnt mean I have to be serious all the time,

 

Grown up,

Doesn’t mean I have to be reserved all the time,

Doesn’t mean I have to be stern all the time,

Doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy my life,

 

Like a child,

Is something I want to be, sometimes.

 

Like a child,

I can play leisurely all day long,

 

Like a child,

I can laugh happily,

 

Like a child,

I can cry out loud when I feel sad,

 

Like a child,

I can stomp my feet if I feel dissastified,

 

Like a child,

I can shout on top of my lungs if I feel angry,

 

Like a child,

I can sleep whenever I feel tired,

 

Like a child,

I can sulk when I feel envy,

 

Like a child,

I can act spoiled everyday to everyone,

 

Like a child,

I feel protected with people around me,

 

Like a child,

I can feel love from everybody,

 

Like a child,

I can be sincere to myself,

 

Like a child,

I can be pure,

I can be true,

and I can be me

 

I wish I can be like a child